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2007-12-20T23:31:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~I bet NO ONE in the world reads this anymore.Thinking can really suck sometimes. Especially thoughts about the past. I was browsing Kitty's blog the other day and saw the link for Joel.....whom I haven't heard from in what's coming up as a year. I don't know what urged me to, but I read some of the old posts....and reading his

2007-07-23T14:34:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Friends for a season:I don't know weather this is an excert from the bible, or just a common proverb, but I was really thinking about it today. About how many people have entered and left my life in the past few years. And it's really odd when you really think about it:That friend from your childhood who swore you would be best

2007-07-09T22:22:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~I really need to post more. But my computer just hates me so much. Poor Kitty and her sad good-bye. She didn't even do anything. Dumb Joel. Don't you know burning bridges is never a good things? Usually ends in regret.So Cornerstone rocked my socks off, or as Dj Glow would say "Dood. It rawked my face off!!!" Suprizingly enough

2007-06-08T22:01:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Holy Freakin Fluff it's an update! Well first off, GRRRRRRRRR that the cabin plans have been torn apart because my boss cannot keep dates straight. So now I have a useless 2 days off. I feel so lost and confused on life. Should I bother continuing school? What carrer do I really even want? It feels so much better to just go with

2007-03-16T20:21:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Ok, I'm gonna do it to. And though I don't have an IPOD, I do have ARES and was able to shuffel the play list.Soundtrack to my life...So, here's how it works:1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)2. Put it on shuffle3. Press play4. For every question, type the song that's playing5. When you go to a new

2007-03-11T22:42:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I'm feeling wicked emo right now. It might be cause I'm sick and fussy....but at any rate...So I was thinking about how I've kinda stopped caring about my life. Not in the way of I don't care about living, but more so I don't care about what's going on in my life/worrying about my life right now. In doing so, it's caused me to

2007-03-09T08:15:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Dude....an update.*So mother nature is on crack. It snows one day, very warm the next morning/day,then back to freezing at night. No wonder I have like 7 things wrong with me right now. *Joel is alive and doing well. The surgery went smoothly, and he's slowly working back his immune system from all the chemo-therapy. *RACC *

2007-02-23T06:59:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I seriously think this might be the most awesome thing anyone's ever said to me:"notyourgoober: well my choice is either don't believe you and get a little sarcasm (which doesn't really bother me) or believe you and get stabbed by your absolute poison black heart when i'm not expecting itnotyourgoober: so, i'd take the sarcasm,

2007-02-09T14:58:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Club Worship withdraw.....::sniff:: I MISS YG! ::sniff:: With it now being on saturdays because of quizzing I'm never able to go cause of work....but I WILL be able to go next saturday!!!! I work 9-5. Dude, gotta love good advise from friends: lJadedxBeautyl: I'm going through cw withdrawsirlazybum: yeah...sirlazybum: so is the

2007-02-07T09:28:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I really do hate this new blogger.NO CLUB WORSHIP THIS MONTH?!?!?!?!?!?!? >:O :'(So I went on a shopping spree. Not to bad of one. I was tired of my room always freezing and Mel suggested getting a space heater. So I did and the think rocks my world! But then a problem arrose.....it took more wattage than the old power

2007-01-26T03:31:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Stupid blogger made me switch to the google version. I didn't want to conform! It FORCED me!!!!!!!! So anyways.....Joel called me today. A VERY unexpected, and nice suprize. Irony of the day....one of the first things I said when I picked up was "the stars have found favor upon me today" and he goes "Yeah, they said a few days

2007-01-14T18:42:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Why Why WHY??????So last night was Club Worship (and it was good) which means I didn't get home till about 2 in the morining. As I'm leaving to go to Youth Group at 6:00pm I find out that some punk ass kids must of apparently been bored last night, so they decided to smash my driver's window out.Nothing was missing inside the

2007-01-02T02:57:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Because you love me you know you want to do this for me: Take My Quiz onQuizYourFriends.com Can you Ace my quiz? Yes! No Let's Find Out! And this: http://kevan.org/johari?name=KairsieSome

2006-12-25T20:19:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ HAPPY HALLOWEEN!Crap. I mean,MERRY CHRISTMAS!...eh whateverGod is awesome. Has quite a fun Christmas Eve, going out for chineese food with awesome people. God a grumpy bear hoodie from Mel, and new piercing jewelry fron John S. of all people. Watched A Chirstmas Story *twice*.This morning I went to Jeff and Candi's for a little

2006-12-13T19:46:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ God is wicked testing me right now.There was $900 missing from mcdonalds from a deposit I had done. I *was* fired, and in danger of going to the police. Ruthie (my GM) knows I would never steal, but there was no way of proving elsewise. I was completly hysterical/crying (as Mel, Cloud, and John saw later that night) and was just

2006-12-12T20:46:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Part 2.This will only make sense if you read the post directly below. So I was angry after posting all that and just like "What the heck God? Things were going good for awhile. Why do they have to be all messed up again?" So God and I started having a conversation that went something like this:GOD: Well, you didn't actually max

2006-12-12T17:35:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ "It's like the more money we come across, the more problems we see"Man I'd love to be that person. Problems because you have TO MUCH money? Bring it on!Anyone who's dealt with RACC's finacial aid system, esp on WebAdvisor, knows how incredibly retarded it is. They show you your finacial aid amount SUPPOSING you took out your

2006-11-30T07:10:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ So I'm feeling a little brave...Why is it the only time I really get "comments" on my blog is when I did "something wrong"? Like no one says anything like "I'm sorry you were in the hospital, and I'm glad it was nothing serious and you're ok" or something like "It's good to see you're still so passionate about Club Worship". "

2006-11-28T08:45:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I got this http://www.easternstorm.net/wedding/engagement/index.htm from Dj Saj off of the TastyFresh site, and it's the friggin cutest thing I've ever read!!!!

2006-11-22T13:04:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Reason #1 not to go on steriods, they taste HORRIBLE!!!!!Let me explain...Wensday morning at work @4:30 am I was having a hard time breathing. I took my inhaler but strangely things got worse. My heart beat and pulse felt completly off key, and I was shaky and dizzy. I left work an hour early to go to the hospital.Now any of you

2006-11-18T23:31:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ It must be that time of the year. Time for an emotional breakdown, except I'm not gonna waste the energy on actually having one.Joel has pretty much equated me to the level of his father. Most of you won't understand why that's a bad thing but trust me, it's pretty much the harshest thing he could say to me. Perhaps he's just

2006-11-15T21:48:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~I feel it's time for an update, but I don't really know what to update about.Club Worship went ok. Our team was mega small, and we only had 7 people on crew (by crew I'm not counting sales, front door, or security. More those who help set up the ballroom)Daniel did impressively well on lights for his first time, and I had the

2006-11-08T21:36:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ First off, let me state that I changed my blog address for a reason. To many people got offended at my writings, so I changed the address and only gave it to a few select people. Anyone else who may be on here reading, you LOOKED to get here, so you're not allowed to be offended by anything I write on here. If you're an easily

2006-11-05T15:48:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ A dream upon dreamssought will full hearta love made wholesuch a delicate art.A smile, a hug, a soft spoken gaze.I need to get out of this intricate maze!Heart not yet completly healeddare you tear it apart.Tired of the games,so damn tired.I'm worth more than a seasona sandglass of time.Give me a love that's eternaland soul set

2006-10-31T04:01:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Half way across the world and there's still boy drama ::rolls eyes::You know, I should really be doing homework/studying right now.At any rate, wow yesterday was some hard work. It included alot of lugging around heavy objects like skate ramps, and metal poles and platforms to build the stage with. They had everything measured

2006-10-29T17:14:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Oh my gosh it took me for freaking ever to get into this site. We're at the YWAM base right now and the filters on these computers won't let you get on anything. But anyways.....Still been taking it pretty easy. The two most hectic days are still to come. One being the mega set-up tomorrow morning, and the other is the mega

2006-10-26T03:00:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ SCOTLAND!!!!!!!! Well, miracously we made it here, but not without Jeff first forgetting our tickets, then once we got to the airport realizing he left his passport back at the church. But we all got here safe, on-time, AND with all our luggage. Today will be our first out reach day. We've had vacation the past two days, which

2006-10-17T21:03:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ yay-ness! The psych test that I totally burned my brain out on, I got an 82% ::grins:: and we have a chance to earn back points. English is still evil however.Damnit it all times 10! Seems I WON'T be going to Shocktober Fest. The boy got called into work. Oh well, it's also Zion's fall festival (which I had forgotten about) so

2006-10-16T19:59:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Oh my God I have become HORRIBLE at updating this. Psychology makes my head hurt! I enjoy it and all but the tests are SO hard! I wonder how well I'll keep up after missing 4 classes due to Scotland.MONDAY I LEAVE!!!!!!!!!! With an incredibly EVIL layover in London for 14 freakin hours!! And they're afraid we CAN'T leave the

2006-10-05T20:12:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ SWEETNESS!!!!!!!!!!!! I just got my passport in the mail today. I got my days off of work, my professors know I am going to miss 4 (yikes) days of classes, Jeff bought the tickets......everything for Scotland is set! Now if only my freakin internet connection would work. I got verizon DSL, but I'm having the hardest freakin time

2006-09-28T08:34:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! Thanks to Jeff (you rock!!!!) I got $600 raised for my trip to Scotland, which makes it MUCH more possible to go, though I will still be cutting it mega tight. I'll have to put in $600 of my own money PLUS however much the passport is gonna be. (and being that I need to do it in Philly's same day service

2006-09-12T10:57:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Yawn and a half. Not boredom, just exhaustion. I haven't gotten a chance to rest since last Monday.CW ROCKED THE FREAKIN WORLD!!!!!! Andy Hunter was amazing, and I loved hearing him talk ::grins::. Poor Andrew Smither now has everyone calling him Andy cause they got use to Andy Hunter (and yes Andrew, I have *always* called you

2006-09-05T09:22:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ La de daaaa....This update is basically so Joel can stop bitching at me that I don't update, cause he's annoying like that (love you!) I don't have internet at the moment, and don't always have the time to get to the library. What do you want from me?!?!?!?!?!I haven't really been up to much. School doesn't start till the 25th.

2006-08-24T17:26:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ What is this world coming to?!?!?! Mel bought a ford ::shudders:: Steve is engaged, and Pluto is no longer a planet. I still remember the days when Steve wanted to date me, glad that's over. So I got a letter from Racc that basically said "we saw that you attented the summer term, therefore we're giving you an extra $200" Rock

2006-08-21T17:53:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Justin rocks my world. He went and got me some IB profin, and rented "The Visitation" by Frank Peretti so we could watch it. Yay for awesome friends. Reminds me of the time Andy.....I mean the mysterious elf left some medicine at ACTV when I was wicked sick and didn't have a car. My head keeps hurting more than my ankle does.

2006-08-21T08:05:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ So Purple Door was fun and all, but after Cornerstone you just can't compare it. And thanks to people like Jeff the audioist, and Dustin the visualist, I can no longer go to these concerts and just enjoy the performance. No, I sit there and cretique them. Like how they kept killing TFK's singers microphone, and just the really

2006-08-15T21:40:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Today was a good rainy day. And I don't really know why I think that, just seemed fitting today.So last Sunday we were supposed to play wacky tackle kickball at YG, but we took a vote before hand on how many people wanted to take the tackle part out (wusses) and they won. Anyone who was a true old schooler was highly offended by

2006-08-12T07:48:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I swear the earth just opened up and swallowed me whole.Not only is Joel apparently not talking to me, because my e-mail came off meaner than I intended it.....nor is it just the fact that he's talking about all the gorgeous women he's surrounded by.......but his old buea Coralee is joining him in ALL his travels. Kitty jokingly

2006-08-09T21:08:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Grrrness! This months' cw is all cool and outdoor old style rave and such....AND THEY MOVED IT TO A FRIDAY!! Why? Man I'm so bummed. Two more classes left! Almost done with school, then I have to work a double shift...THEN head off to Purple Door. I'm gonna die.I can't wait till the Scotland trip. I need to find out what's going

2006-08-07T15:43:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ So now I will basically be ranting to myself, unless you're one of the few who got a link to this address, which really should only be Kitty and Mel. So if you're anyone else and somehow found your way here you're not allowed to get angry/upset at the content written because I did not post it for the world to see, YOU came

2006-07-26T16:01:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Well life just keeps getting better (please note the sarcasim) I don't know what was wrong with me last night, but I slept through class AND work. I don't know, I just didn't wake up. Even with 3 seperate alarms, and I wasn't under Nyquil or anything. So now I'm in alot of trouble cause I don't have a good reason for any of it.

2006-07-23T08:27:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I guess I should update or something. Not much has really been going on except school and work. I have so many essays going on simultaneiously (if I spelled that right someone should give me a lollipop!) I'm pulling a 98 in math...and a 90-something in english. DAMNIT! I just realized I *STILL* haven't mailed in my PHEAA stuff.

2006-07-14T19:49:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Well. I must say I was very suprized, but also happy, to see this post on Tastyfresh":: VJ Dutch:: (which is Dustin) In this case (as in many others) being a college student is very beneficial. as long as Cstone is anywhere in june july or august its still convenient for me I sure hope Club Worship is invited back again next

2006-07-11T22:08:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Apparently I just shouldn't go on vacation. Not only did my car get broken into while I was gone, but my store was also robbed. Crazyness. Now we close the doors at....wouldn't you like to know. It's early is all I'm gonna say. I feel so behind in school. Missing a day of college is not like missing a day of high school. I have

2006-07-09T21:00:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Oh man I am home!It would take days and a freakin book to write all that happened on the trip, so I will break it into two lists of highlights and lowlights.HIGHLIGHTS:*Meeting DJ Glow. That dude was crazy awesome and incredibly hyper.*Rocking out to bands like Anberlin, Family Force Five, MXPX, Relient K, Pillar, POD!!!!

2006-07-02T16:16:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ On Mel's computer, so cookies aren't an issue right now.I'm really not happy about going to Cornerstone. I just physically don't wanna be around people right now. I was very looking forward to a week off of work, and a week of my friends gone, to just be by myself in my house without having to worry about getting anything done.

2006-06-28T17:51:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ So I have no school the rest of the week, and if you go here www.jonsblog.com you can see why. My school is half under-water. Well, that's not completly true, my school is fine. The Student Union building is about 1/15 under water, and the library in which my english class is held is .......1/10-1/8? under water. Now I am in no

2006-06-23T19:56:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ::yawn:: I am so incredibly exausted.So I survived my first week of college. Tuesdays and thursdays are definetly rough, being I have two classes on those days and then work overnight. So far I've been doing a good job of getting my homework done the night it's assigned. Hopefully it stays like that. Only two days of english

2006-06-19T14:11:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I start college today! Ack! I won't be able to get my books yet cause I had no idea they cost A FREAKING HUNDRED DOLLARS EACH!!! I'm gonna have to take out a small loan or something for them. Why do books cost that much? It's retarded. So I actually did stuff this weekend for once. Justin and I went to a hick carnival (well more

2006-06-17T14:14:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ OH MY GOD!!! Ruthie is engaged!!!! I don't think I can contain the excitement (or the weirdness)Ok so according to order of succession, Shauna should be next, then Dave and I get our turn (NOT together however!) Well, Kelly Dennis or Jesse might beat us but still. MY TURN!!!(Mel, what was my wedding date? june 2008?)

2006-06-16T16:14:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ God I am so freakin ready to just end it all. And no, I'm not talking suicide ::rolls eyes:: I literally mean I'm ready to end all the freakin activities I'm involved in.Mel's about to leave for the entire summer. I hung out with her like once since I've been back. See, I'm not tight with Justin or Brook, therefore I'm not

2006-06-13T17:56:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Umm, yeah. Thinking still broke.So I came to the awesome realization that now that I will be working night shift I WILL have enough day hours to do a full credit semester. So I added psychology to my schedual.(yes, I'm insane)So I got rid of Jothra yesterday. It was cool taking him to the new place cause he loves car rides. He

2006-06-11T14:46:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I finally found someone to take my kitten. My mom's best friend from down here. Now actually, all this time I figured my mom would of already talked to her and she wasn't an option and that's why my mom didn't know who to give it to at first, cause she would of been the first person I thought of. Oh well, she thought of it now,

2006-06-09T21:20:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ A shrill voice in the midst of silencecrying out for a desperate ear.One whisper of care is all this angel needs.Is all forgotten?shattered by fate?The beauty of a mockingbird's songnow so far away.Nothing compares to the scortch of these tears. Three little words,so beautiful,so painful,healing,heartbreaking.Perhaps this angel

2006-06-06T15:27:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Is it time to cry yet? I'm cranky to begin with cause I have broncitus right now. And then I get the news from Dustin that Orasmo has dropped out of C-Stone, and so has our back up person John S. And I was very, very close to not going. I think Dustin would of committed techie suicide if I was not going. It's still gonna kill me

2006-06-06T12:21:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I'm sorry, but Brook is wrong this is not the greatest song everTHIS is the greatest song ever!

2006-06-05T22:58:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Send away for a priceless giftOne not subtle, one not on the listSend away for a perfect worldOne not simply, so absurdIn these times of doing what you're toldYou keep these feelings, no one knowsWhat ever happened to the young man's heartSwallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apartAnd I'm staring down the barrel of a 45,Swimming

2006-06-02T17:53:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I feel better. It's cause I'm eating chicken nuggets. Most girls indulge in chocolate or ice cream or something sweet and gooey. Me, it's all about the nuggets. They sooth me. Don't ask. I have issues.Jesse and I just shouldn't talk, cause here's what happens when we do:Live2Live4HIM: i'm sorry being with people makes you expire

2006-06-01T20:47:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Dustin rocks my socks, twice over! He fixed my computer, which includes Swish 2.1 it's freakin amazing!!! Affects that would normally take me 20 minutes to do with multiple layers in swish 1.5 now take seconds! And he gave me speakers. You know what speakers mean? CASCADA!!!! (side note: I got Dustin's wicked anti-social cat to

2006-05-31T13:47:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ And now back to your regularly schedualed posting.Thanks to Mel I've had Cascada stuck in my head for the past 4 days. Her album rocks.Mini-golfing last Sunday was cool. I sucked majorly, and tied for second to last place with Jon. Mainly I would just get to fusterated, stop trying at like 4 strokes and tell them just give me

2006-05-30T04:30:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Can someone please explain to me what the fuck is going on?!?!?!?!Last I remember I had been talking to Joel on the phone for hours, and no it wasn't good conversation. Not really fighting but, whatever. I was wicked upset....actually I was wicked calm, he was upset, ect ect. And I really don't remember how the conversation

2006-05-27T17:43:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Rachel, why is your xanga so plagued with evil pop-ups?Why is it I always have nothing to do on a Saturday? And I was going high speed to!Hung out with kitty a bit on Thursday, and she introduced me to this black/white frappalatte, I swear it was the most sinful thing I ever tasted. I'm so going to hell for drinking it. Just

2006-05-24T23:02:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ::sigh:: Dustin, how do you put up with me and my DPC? (DPC is an abbriveation you guys will start seeing often. It stands for Demon Possesed Computer, and that is what I have)It went all font crazy this morning, and all the menu selections were in jibberish. Dustin tried helping me go through safe mode and restore system

2006-05-24T00:05:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Yay! Jeff and Dustin rock my socks. Jeff rocks cause he figured out how to configure my computer to accept cable as a connection device. And Dustin helped me get AIM on my computer (I had to down-load a way old version cause I didn't have enough free memory for the newer versions) Hopefully he'll rock my socks even more when he

2006-05-23T17:56:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ GRRRRR! So apparently my room-mate freakin lied to me (again) and never even ASKED the landlord if it was ok to have a pet, when she assured me like a million times over that it was, AND told me that she PERSONALLY spoke to the landlord and asked him herself. PPPIIIFFFFTTTT! So now I find out I'm NOT allowed to have a pet and

2006-05-22T01:06:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Ugh. I'm so friggin sick, and here I am at Jeff's house at 1 in the morning cause me Dee and Dave came over for late night pizza and ROOK, which btw Deanna and I killed Jeff and Candi in. Man I'm so sleepy but I hate sleeping so much. Hadn't made it to the gym in 2 days, grrr on me. Jothra is much happier now that I bought him

2006-05-18T00:34:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I should so be asleep right now, but I have some awesome revelations running in my head right now.I'm preparing for my YG lesson on Sunday on the topic of Worship. Now when you hear the word Worship, most people automatically think of singing and praises and the like. I really wish I had the chapter here with me right now, cause

2006-05-15T13:55:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Ummmm yeah.Been a while since I updated. (and you can't tell cause I'm correcting them, but I'm having a really hard time typing with nails on)So I was reminded at 8am this morning that it's my Birthday.....yeah. Not really much of one. It's all rainy, and I had to say good-bye to Joel, which wasn't fun. And the phila airport is

2006-05-07T23:52:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ PPPPIIIIFFFFTTTTT.So apparently I'm evil, and I have an evil twin sister that lives in Lancaster NY (see Aaron's blog for details. You can get the link off of Mel's site since he's not cool enough to have a link on my site.)Jeff's van kersploded again, so it's in the shop till probably Thursday. Which means a whole week and a

2006-05-06T08:10:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Have people boycotted commenting on my blog?I'm such a freak. Somehow I fell into a school sleep schedual. I'm in bed by 9 and up at 6. Mel, I'd offer to go take your finals for you but remember, I thought Anthropology was like Archeology.I am *SO* happy to be back in my wonderful dutch country! It's so beautifully warm and full

2006-05-01T07:07:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ *****WARNING*****If anyone calls and wakes me up today you're DEAD!!!!!Thank you, come again tomorrow

2006-04-30T07:28:00.001-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Oh freakin grrrr.So Mel posts that the skating party has been moved because skateaway is getting their floors done. So I'm thinking "good, that gives me a full day to get the text visuals done for Dustin. OH! Maybe they'll have it the next monday (15th) on my b-day. That would be cool"........NO! Freakin morons move it UP a week

2006-04-28T09:25:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Kitty, I'm not sure, but I think you confused the below post for a poem. It's actually a song by Rascal Flatts.So anyways, I actually, like, did stuff to my MySpace. It's all pretty now. (do you like how I used the proper usage of commas while inserting the valley girl "like"?)I really wish my one toenail would just fall off.

2006-04-26T06:30:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I can take the rain on the roof of this empty houseThat don’t bother meI can take a few tears now and then and just let them outI’m not afraid to cry every once in a whileEven though going on with you gone still upsets meThere are days every now and again I pretend I’m okBut that’s not what gets meWhat hurts the mostWas being so

2006-04-21T20:14:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ New dawns shall not rise upon wishesthe fated never comes.Dreams and reality mergetrapped in a layberenth of desires,an altered world.Hopelessness calls from the shadows.Mutated logic drills at the mind.Whatever happened to faerie tales?Innocent lovechild-like faithun-wounded wishes.Not but faint memories of a dream once

2006-04-20T18:17:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Your Scholastic Strength Is InnovatingYou are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things.You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines.You should major in:MarketingPsychologyDesginCognitive Science EconomicsPhotographyWhat Should You Major In?I DON'T EVEN LIKE

2006-04-18T19:02:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ WOOTNESS!My car insurance went down two hundred dollars! I don't know why, but I'm not gonna complain. Countdowns:*15 days till I move back home!!!!!!!*23 days till Joel comes <3*27 days till my B-day (I'm getting so old)*75 days till Cornerstone!!!!!

2006-04-15T14:09:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ .......So I got a letter from the Finacial Aid office, I'm eligable for 12,000+ a year (and that's just the FASFA section) So go me! So anyways, finally my really dim light bulb goes on ::ding!:: "Hey, the hell with stupid room-mates who bail and don't call back yada yada, check The Eagle on-line to look for places" So I did. I

2006-04-12T17:01:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ And even more Grrrrr.I still haven't heard from the lady I'm supposed to move in with. I'm starting to get nervous. So not cool.Not having my cell phone active is driving me insane! You have no idea, unless you yourself own one, and know what it's like. You feel helpless and naked.Joel, if you wake up and read this call my house

2006-04-10T17:51:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Fucking grrrr!So I had a wondeful weekend (that was NOT sarcasim) seriously, I had alot of fun, hung out with people I haven't in a while. And the weather was beautiful. I was satisfyingy exausted by the time I got home.BUT......On my way home I realized I had forgotten my cell-phone charger, my own dumb fault, so Mel's gonna

2006-04-07T13:20:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Rained way to much on the way down here. To many accidents, none involving me howevewr :). (Dude I really like Mel's keyboard) No one's at the house yet, except Jaron who is asleep. I should go put whip cream at the bottom of his bed. ::coughdannycough::. Then Mel and I shall be on the impossible mission of finding a blue haired

2006-04-05T08:35:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ EEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Club Worship is playing at Cornerstone! We're in charge of Tuesday night's dance hall. OM GOSH I am so freakin excited!!!!! (dave here's our ticket ;) ) I really don't have anything else to say. I just had to tell everyone the awesomeness of above event.

2006-04-02T06:47:00.000-04:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ (once again I had this huge post written, and once again my computer crashed, so once again I will attempt re-posting it)April showers bring May flowers.The first day of April and it's raining up a storm. Which is fine because the weather's finally getting warm and the sky is a beautiful mixture of purple, blue, and dark

2006-03-27T20:55:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~This worked for Brook, so I wanna see if it works for me. Who reads my blog? Sign a comment if you do.Woot! Woot! (or in Kitty's terminology wootness squared) I gots me my apartment! 10th and washington. Admitedly not the best area, but I *DID* grow up in the city, most people just don't know that. And I finally figured out what

2006-03-27T14:18:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ So apparently I'm not allowed to go to Ireland ::grins::I felt mega guilty this morning that I woke up early and didn't work. It's my day off from McD's but I could of worked at the auto auction if I had wanted to, but for whatever reason decided not to. (and yes I really do have the freedom to choose when I want to work and

2006-03-26T06:56:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Stupid computer. I had this REALLY long post written and then my computer decided to randomly restart it's self. So now I'm gonna try posting it again.I really got to thinking the other day....about lots of things.....The other day at work when I was getting ready to leave, it was about 5:30 in the morning, and the sky had this

2006-03-14T13:17:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Dude. What a week. So I had my placement test on friday. I tested right into Freshman English, and actually I was only 10 points away from being able to take honors english! But I failed the math portion because instead of giving you a full test and then counting how many you got wrong, they end it after you get so many wrong,

2006-03-04T20:05:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ The hell with these games.I can't take them anymore.You want to reflect the damageeven the score. I've had enough and I'm letting you go. *I* shall deliver your marienett's last blow.I've fought wars for youstood by your side.You'll never understand the pain I keep inside.It's all in vain, worthless becauseyou'll never

2006-03-03T00:03:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Dude, somebody freakin hacked my Neopets! I don't really care to much cause I stopped playing them a while back, but I promised my sister my whole Neopian bank account if she did my wash for me, this was before we found out my site was hacked. Now she's saying I owe her REAL money. I don't think so.I am *SO* proud of my minions.

2006-02-25T01:19:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Siting, wishing, dreamingblank stares at the ceilingpurple roses, hazel eyes, full moonsoon, brittle heart, soon.Faierieland dreamsnought be redeemed,paid in full; promise and vow.My love and soul to have you now.Agonizing silence,neither dare be defiant.Caught inside hated wallsno whisper, echo, or call......... and I'm having

2006-02-20T00:38:00.001-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Apparently imaginary people can comment on my blog :/Men suck. Seriously. I should just become a lesbian and be done with it. (My imaginary people have nothing to do with this) Like everyone knows I plan to remain a virgin till I'm married. It's something that comes up fairly early in conversations with people. So this one guy

2006-02-15T23:46:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Oh the evils of algebra!!! It's been 5 years since I've done any, and even back then I was only a B student on a really really good day. Now I have to try and re-learn it for my college entry placement test. I even forget some geometry, and I had a 104 in that class!!!! Luckily there's a kid at my one job who's like a math

2006-02-13T23:22:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I don't know what's wrong with me. I just want to fall back into a corner and cry. For the first time ever, I look in the mirror and like what I see. When I go to work in my uniform I feel cute. But yet it's not good enough. I'm creative and artistic, but that's not good enough. I'm good at many tasks. Not good enough. I have my

2006-02-10T23:35:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ TWO DAYS IN A ROW!!! That's only cause I get to sleep in tomorrow. Huzzah! So I made the deadline of my last car insurance payment till May. Even EXTRA money to save. Money is always good....except when it's being taken from you. Ugh I need new shoes. Stand on my feet for 16 hours a day straight. Cell phone is still down though.

2006-02-08T22:57:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Holy fluffy crap it's an update!!!!yeah.....I just worked from 7:30-4, then 5-11, and I get to do the same tomorrow. yippie. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzummmmmm, you know.....I really don't have anything to say. Just wanted to prove I'm still alive and junk.In Conclusion: I still want a purple rose!

2006-02-01T22:00:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~So apparently I'm supposed to do this as well, cause Kitty said so. Roar. The only problem is I don't know half of the song's real titles nor who sings them. But anyways......Opening credits:"When in Doubt"- TFKWaking up: "All cried out"Average day: "American Idiot"- Green DayFirst date: "First Night"- MonicaFalling in love: "

2006-01-31T22:24:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ My head a'splode! I don't have ADHD, but my brain does. One shouldn't call me at 12:45am and discuss important issues and give me "assignments" cause then I lay in bed for two hours thinking of all the things that were just said and how many things I can do for the assignment and what to do, where to start, little pre-scripts

2006-01-28T18:50:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Freakin blogger takes forever to update when I write on my poetry blog. Like days. Grr them.Damn I have a headache.So I got a call from Wal*Mart. The good news is if I get hired I''ll make 8.25 an hour. The bad news is their hiring process takes two freakin weeks. And if I don't hear back from them again by monday I'm going to

2006-01-26T22:40:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~You sang to meontop of a worn and tattered bridgeoverlooking the black waterfall.You pointed out the silver glimmers that still remain. You showed the rose back to it's velvet color and sweet scent.You sang to meabout a hand filled with shattered pieces.Hard to tell where the blood stopped and the heart began.Frozen tears captive

2006-01-25T23:04:00.000-05:00

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Freakin blogger. I had a post all typed out, then it says "blogger is down for maitmence (so killed the spelling on that) and it couldn't save my post as a draft or anything.AJ, do you start out every comment with "Hmmmm"? lolI've come to the unfortunate conclusion that I am not over my addiction. I haven't cut myself at all,